ahhh 3 weeks after army started... and i feel emotionally stable enough to blog. during confinement period i just felt miserable most of the times and emotionally fragile. when we had oo talks could feel surges of feelings whenever he referred to family and home and stuff like that... but now it's better ba. this week was relatively slack... definitely getting more used the the style of life. most of the pt sessions are quite ok... apart from some really unbearable ones like route march. have a super short week next week but the week after is... ahhhhh!!! field camp. ooooh hell's gonna be a place on earth~ but after that the worst is over ba. still... it's a looming pitch black cloud.
ahhh i feel the changes coming. feel myself becoming more organized, more practical, more efficient... army survival adaptation. but in the process... losing (or maybe atrophying might be a better term) the dreamy imaginative and creative side. trying to keep it alive by reading... my scifi and fantasy novels. at least their appeal isn't lost yet. but haiz still mourn for that certain amount of inevitable degeneration of that side of myself in these 2 years. it's like a real die. when the 6 comes to the top, the 1 has to be hidden. but at least i know i have both 1 and 6.
booking in tmr at 5.50! super short break. but short week also la. intense tho. live range and ippt diagnostics. 3 days of stress, followed by relative bliss, and hell. lolz what a schedule.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
ahhh 3 weeks after army started... and i feel emotionally stable enough to blog. during confinement period i just felt miserable most of the times and emotionally fragile. when we had oo talks could feel surges of feelings whenever he referred to family and home and stuff like that... but now it's better ba. this week was relatively slack... definitely getting more used the the style of life. most of the pt sessions are quite ok... apart from some really unbearable ones like route march. have a super short week next week but the week after is... ahhhhh!!! field camp. ooooh hell's gonna be a place on earth~ but after that the worst is over ba. still... it's a looming pitch black cloud.
ahhh i feel the changes coming. feel myself becoming more organized, more practical, more efficient... army survival adaptation. but in the process... losing (or maybe atrophying might be a better term) the dreamy imaginative and creative side. trying to keep it alive by reading... my scifi and fantasy novels. at least their appeal isn't lost yet. but haiz still mourn for that certain amount of inevitable degeneration of that side of myself in these 2 years. it's like a real die. when the 6 comes to the top, the 1 has to be hidden. but at least i know i have both 1 and 6.
booking in tmr at 5.50! super short break. but short week also la. intense tho. live range and ippt diagnostics. 3 days of stress, followed by relative bliss, and hell. lolz what a schedule.